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first day

Sorry for the lack of postage today… I worked from 12-5, came home and watched a couple episodes of the Daily Show (LOVE Jon Stewart!), and fell asleep. I was so tired! I really need to start going to bed at a decent hour and getting at least 7-8 hours of sleep, especially now that I’m working. I fell asleep so many times at work today! I just hope that my new boss didn’t notice.

I really like this job… I really don’t want to move now! I mean, I do, but I wish I could transplant this job with me. I still really want to go to California, but I really don’t want to leave this job.

I apologize for not posting any outfit photos today… like I said, I fell asleep, and my hair was a mess when I woke up a few minutes ago. BUT, tomorrow is going to be a day of browsing vintage stores (after I donate plasma again… lame) and the mall, so I swear you’ll get photos tomorrow! PLUS, it’s going to be warm tomorrow (yay!) so I’m probably going to wear my new shorts!

We had been planning on moving on the 25th, but if T’s parents won’t drive down with us (which I’m pretty sure they won’t), I’m thinking we’ll stay until the 28th or 29th. That way I can work as long as possible, and N & A have a little bit longer to figure something out.

I really do feel bad about abandoning them, but they’re also kind of pissing me off. They haven’t even paid us back the $40 they owe us, let alone any money towards rent like they said they would! I get that they have to pay for gas and whatever, but I know for a fact that they also spent at least $100 on green… ARGH! T and I are both really peeved about that. To me, it’s incredibly disrespectful and an abuse of our friendship. They’re living off of us and not paying us a dime OR even acting a little bit grateful. A has gotten two pay checks and a lot of birthday money, and still nothing. Not only that, but they won’t even buy their own food!

It really pisses me off, because T and I have both been out of work and we’re broke as fuck too. We’ve both been donating plasma to help make ends meet and get groceries, and N point blank refuses to donate! I understand why A doesn’t – she does work – but N just sits home and plays LoL all fucking day! He hasn’t done a damn thing to help out, and he refuses to help for no good reason.

I love my friends, but sometimes they really piss me off.


yay for new shoes!

[shoes: charlotte russe; tights: bebe]

Got my new shoes today 🙂 Aren’t they gorgeous?!? AND they were on sale for $15! I’m a little excited about them lol… Normally I refuse to wear shoes inside, and I’ve been wearing these since the moment I got them, and I’ve already gotten tons of complements. These shoes make me happy. The heel is 5″ tall, and the platform on the front is about 1 1/2 inches, but they are surprisingly comfortable. They fit perfectly, and they’re (relatively) easy to walk in. I’ve tripped a couple times (haha), but I think once I get used to wearing them I’ll be okay. Yay for shoes!!!

Going back down to the mall as soon as Travis gets his pay check and he’s going to get me my birthday present. Sweet! We were supposed to get it today, but his check wasn’t in the mail… if it’s not there tomorrow I’m going to be pissed. Apparently in Utah, if you get fired your employer has 24 hours to get you your last pay check… and it’s been over a week since they fired Travis! Plus, they are not technically supposed to mail it – they’re supposed to hand it to you as they fire you. OMG. If it’s not here tomorrow I’m seriously considering calling a lawyer. This is fucked up! We needed that money today to pay our rent… thankfully we have an understanding land lord, but if it’s not here tomorrow I don’t know if she’ll be as understanding!


In other news…

We’re going to donate plasma tomorrow afternoon. It’s not fun, but it’s money. I just hope it doesn’t take the entire day like it did the first time we did it (which was two years ago and I haven’t done it since). Between the two of us we’ll get $60, which is enough to buy my birthday presents and still have a little left over. I want my presents now 😦

cocktail rings

[pink & gold cameo ring: bebe; twisted metal rhinestone ring: f21]

Wore my rings today. I know the gold one clashes, but it’s so pretty and I love it… I’ll wear it for a few days and when it’s shiny newness wears off I’ll put it in a drawer somewhere and forget about it. And in case you’re wondering, the nail polish I’m wearing is Hard Candy in Fishnet. Normally I avoid bright colors, but I *love* this color! It’s just the right amount of pop. I think I’m going to try nail polish in bubble gum pink, sunny yellow, and maybe a bright teal or turquoise. I’ll be sure to post photos when I do 🙂

Added loads of new stuff. Check out my new pages on the right, there is a lot of interesting info (if you’re interested in fashion, that is, and let’s face it… if you’re not interested in fashion you’re probably not still reading this post).

I am really, really tired. I am actually falling asleep at my computer. WTF??? It’s only 9:15 pm….. Maybe I should just go bed and catch up on my sleep.


Added a new page for my fashion exploits. Please feel free to check it out and leave me commentary. I will start posting some of my fantastic wardrobe creations tomorrow, so be sure to check in sometime in the afternoon.

Considering an excursion to the mall tomorrow. Not that I have any money to spend, but it could be fun to get all dressed up and pretend to be rich with money to blow. I could put together outfits and try them on in the fitting rooms and take pictures with my phone. Could be fun. It would get me out of the house and some much needed me-time.

I am definitely going to the library tomorrow, and quite possibly the coffee shop. Both places I can study and write, which I desperately want to do but can’t seem to concentrate or focus here at home. Too many distractions and too much negative energy.

I have a job interview in the morning. Wish me luck! I really want to get a job, even if we do move to CA. I want to work. After two full months of unemployment, I’m bored and I need a change in my routine of laziness and self pity. I am so sick of being stuck in the house all the time and never having money to get out.

I have to decide by tomorrow if we’re moving. Part of me really wants to go – this is exactly what I’ve been saying I want for years now. A chance to get away and start over; to go somewhere no one knows who I am, what I’ve done or anything about any of the mistakes that I’ve made. I would get to start completely over, but I wouldn’t be completely by myself.

But something is holding me back. I’m terrified we’ll get there, and instead of things getting better like I’m hoping, everything will just finish disintegrating. PLUS, as I understand it, the job market is in pretty sad shape down there. I’m afraid of not being able to find jobs and having to come back here anyway.

I don’t know. But I have to work it out by morning.

I think I will consult my tarot cards. Maybe I’ll even pray. It’s been a while since I’ve really talked with the Lord and Lady. Maybe now would be the right time to ask for a little guidance. Cuz I honestly have no idea what to do.

Maybe I do, and I’m just afraid to do it.


So I went for an interview at a staffing agency this morning and ended up temping as a receptionist this afternoon! Yay!

I’m typing this as I tend the front desk, and I gotta say, it’s kinda nice. Easy work, answering the phone and signing for packages… I could do this all day honestly. I’m so very glad I decided to do this. It’s nice to be out of the house and making some money. I almost can’t wait to get back to work. I’d forgotten how much I enjoy new jobs. It’s always a little scary at first, but I get the hang of things pretty quickly, and from there it’s fun and interesting.

Talked to an old friend last night. By old friend, I mean ex-boyfriend and would-have-been-father of my aborted pregnancy. That was four years ago. I’ve only seen him once since.

And I do miss him. I think about him, more than I would like to. He said he regrets having the abortion. That he sometimes dreams we had a little girl. He could be a welcome distraction from how horrible my life has become.

Or he could just add to the complications. Which do you think is more likely?

Tried talking to A about it. I was looking for a little loving support… what I got was a reminder that these are not my friends. They’re T’s. That’s how they started out, and I have a pretty good feeling that’s how they’ll end up as well. Getting a divorce would probably also mean losing most of my friends.

I think that’s the hardest part of the situation for me. Our closest friends are actually his. I have my own… but I don’t get to see them very often. I feel alienated from them, because of him. He gets angry when I talk about our relationship. But sometimes I need someone else to talk to. Sometimes I need support and objective advice that he can’t give me.


Work day is over. Grocery shopping after this, then home. Hopefully T didn’t get stuck in traffic coming to pick me up. Cross your fingers for me!