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Teal L/S Top, Black Vest & Express Jeans

Teal L/S Top, Black Vest & Express Jeans

Teal L/S Top, Black Vest & Express Jeans

Teal L/S Top, Black Vest & Express Jeans

teal l/s shirt :: Forever 21; black vest :: Forever 21; wide black belt :: Forever 21; jeans :: ReRock by Express; necklace :: Forever 21; watch :: Rumors @ JC Penney; earrings :: Charlotte Russe; black pumps :: vintage; pink & gold cameo ring :: Bebe; gold & pearl rings :: Forever 21

Summertime does not mean you must leave layering behind; it simply means you must adjust your tactics! I paired this loose, light knit vest with a long sleeved thin tee – the perfect combo for this time of year, when it’s not quite hot but not quite cold. Later in the summer, when things really start to heat up and it’s too hot for sleeves, I will trade in this tee for a short sleeve version in a fun color, and swap the long jeans for some cute distressed denim shorts. A knit vest such as this allows you to enjoy the layered look without boiling yourself to death in the summer heat.

A wide belt cinched around your middle provides a figure when wearing a loose outer layer. You can wear the belt over the vest to keep things close together, or underneath it, allowing the vest to hang free while still showing off those gorgeous curves. Keep it simple with a solid color that matches your vest, jazz things up with something sequined or sparkly, or add a little bad girl to the ensemble with studs  or chains. Whatever style of belt you choose, try to keep the main color of the belt the same as your vest. IMO, this pulls the look together nicely – especially if this matches your shoes/bag. Go wild with your shirt, and keep everything else related for a polished but fun look.

Things seem to finally be leveling out for me, and I promise I will be updating regularly again from this point forward. I’m considering setting a specific time frame every day that’s completely devoted to this blog. Honestly, I don’t see how that would be too difficult, considering that I don’t really do much of anything most days.

I have been getting out a lot more the last few days. I went to the mall today! I didn’t even make it out of Forever 21 though… What can I say??? I LOVE that store. I bought an entire new outfit for about $100! I really shouldn’t have spent so much, but considering what I got and how much I love it, I don’t regret it too much. I will definitely post pictures tomorrow night! Travis is taking me on a date and I’m going to wear my awesome new outfit for it 🙂

Tomorrow, Travis is taking me to see Iron Man 2, and we’re going to the mall again. I went by myself today, it was nice to get out and have some “me” time. I’m actually really glad I got to go by myself today. He normally loathes going to the mall, but I am insisting that he buys new clothes now that we have some money… He only has one pair of jeans that doesn’t have holes in the knees, and he could definitely use a few more shirts. So I’m dragging him down there tomorrow afternoon, and I plan to explore the rest of the mall as well.

I might be visiting home next week, probably from the 1st to the 5th. If I end up going, posting will prolly be sporadic again. I want to go, to see my family… but it would be really nice to have the house to ourselves for the week. I miss my daddy, but I also miss living on my own. If it were only for a couple of days I would probably go, but it’s almost the entire week – we would be staying at Travis’s mom’s house, without my laptop and without my car, and all of my friends live at least an hour away. I think I would be bored stiff. It could give me a chance to catch up on my reading, but I would also have zero privacy. Whereas, if we stay here, we’d have the house all to ourselves for five days…. I dunno. I hate making decisions.

Again, I’m sorry for the inconsistency in my posting lately. I want you all to know that I do read and very much appreciate every comment left here, even if I don’t answer you immediately. And I haven’t forgotten about the giveaway – I will post the winner tomorrow! 🙂 I’m even gonna be super nice and let you enter until noon PST tomorrow (Thursday, May 27th). I’ll post the winner sometime after that!


it’s been a long week – and it’s only tuesday

Okay, so I really fail at updating my blog over the last week. Things have been crazy. Sorry blog and blog friends 😦

Travis and I had a hunormous fight the other night that very nearly ended in me walking the 600 miles home. It was a bad one. And while I understand his point of view, the argument only happened due to his inability to understand my point of view, despite how many times I have explained myself. And it’s really starting to piss me off. He has a tendency to be extremely inconsiderate and insensitive sometimes over certain issues and it causes a lot of stress for our relationship. There are only two things we ever argue about: sex and money. UGH – Men! But, we’ve worked it out (for the time being, at least), and both agreed to work on our parts of the deal. I think we can fix it… we just have to try a little harder than we have been.

So then, Vince (my cat) went missing for an entire day – I worry entirely too much about my cats. A couple hours I could handle, but he went missing about noon and wasn’t home by midnight when I went to bed. I was skeered, to say the least. Travis went out to check the door at about 4:30 a.m. and found him – in the garage, that we’d torn apart and checked 4 times already. Damn cat.

And then my mom told me she can’t hold up her end of the financial arrangement we made with her this month, which put us in a tight spot for our end of the month obligations. We did get Travis’s 401k check today (thank God), but all of the banks wanted to hold it for at least 5 days, and we have something we must pay on Friday, so we had to pay $80 just to cash the damn thing.

I did get to do a little shopping today though, and I will finally be able to organize my clothes, set up my closet and get my bedroom together. Plus, we’re going to the mall tomorrow – yay!!!

We went to Wal-Mart to obtain some caffeine, and I decided to check the clearance section again, just for kicks and giggles, and I’m so glad I did! I’ve been desperately searching for a denim button up, and I snagged a Miley Cyrus destroyed denim shirt for $7!!! I also picked up an L.E.I. yellow & brown & white plaid button up shirt dress for $7. How sweet is that? 🙂 There was a pair of shorts I strongly considered getting… They were white with a floral pattern. They came in two colors: blue or red, and both had a little yellow mixed throughout them. They were only $5… I’m going to the mall tomorrow, and if I don’t find something I like better, I might go back for them. I’m not sure. We’ll see.

But I am super excited about the denim shirt 😀

I do have some outfit photos to share, so I will be back with those either later tonight or tomorrow sometime. I finally got my sleeping schedule fixed, so I function mostly during the day now. Hopefully I can maintain this trend!

In the meantime though, I have a question. Remember the camo pants I wore in this outfit:
White button up & camo pants

Well, that day was actually the first day I’d worn those pants in, well, years. They’re not skinnies, so they’re kind of a pain in the ass to wear with boots, but they are really cute in this outfit. I’m considering cutting them off into shorts, and I think I would wear them a lot more often that way. Plus, that way I get more wear out of them in the summer while the military/desert trend is still hot. What do you kids think?


my dream life & its wardrobe

Recently, a new friend of mine (Cafe Fashionista) posted a “what if…” post, describing what she would do with her life if she had no responsibilities and could do whatever she wanted, every single day, and invited her readers to do the same.The result, for me at least, was a lovely fantasy that I enjoyed so much I want to share it with you, and I hope, desperately, that one day I can turn it into a reality.

If I could do whatever I wanted every single day, I would go everywhere. I would wear tights, slouchy boots and a loose tunic top or shirt dress, belted at the waist, and carry a big boho bag filled with a camera, good books, treats, spiffy pens and an incredible leather journal.

If my life were mine, to do with as I please, I would wander the beach, stopping occasionally to read or to write; the next day I would explore the city and spend the afternoon sitting outside at a coffee shop, writing about all of the different people who pass by and imagining what their lives are like; I would go deep inside a mountain cave, touching the rocks and writing about what they must be thinking of the crazy human who’s intruded on their home; visit an ancient forest, where I would write about the trees and imagine what they must have seen in their hundreds of years of life.

If my life were mine, I would write, and imagine, and explore, and re-discover the wonder that is the world around us.

What I wouldn’t give to be able to do that…

My daily wear would consist of…

Espresso Cross Body Satchel $36.00

Espresso Cross Body Satchel $36.00, via ThreadSence.com

I would carry this purse with this coraly dress when wandering cities and towns in the South, going through places like Dallas and Nashville:

Embroidered Peasant Dress & Belt via Forever21.com

Embroidered Peasant Dress & Belt via Forever21.com

And with this white dress when wandering through the countryside, meadows and playing in fields of wildflowers:

Embroidered Woven Dress via Forever21.com

Embroidered Woven Dress via Forever21.com

I would wear these shoes with both dresses:

UnionBay LuLu Sandal via Alloy.com

UnionBay LuLu Sandal via Alloy.com

Or maybe these boots:

Don't Come Walking Boot via ModCloth.com

Don't Come Walking Boot via ModCloth.com

This is the jacket I would wear with these dresses on chilly days:

Blended Leatherette Jacket via Forever21.com

Blended Leatherette Jacket via Forever21.com

Edgy Chic Zippered Tote via Forever21.com

Edgy Chic Zippered Tote via Forever21.com

I would carry this black bag (above) with this little but comfy and cute black dress (below) while people watching in places like NYC and LA.

Mesh Tiered Hem Dress via Forever21.com

Mesh Tiered Hem Dress via Forever21.com

I would cinch my waist up with this belt when wearing my LBD:

Studded Waist Belt via Forever21.com

Studded Waist Belt via Forever21.com

On chilly days, I would pull on these tights (or simple, opaque black ones, depending on my mood) to keep my legs warm:

Glam Rock Tights via Forever21.com

Glam Rock Tights via Forever21.com

This is the jacket I would wear to ward off the cold:

Crinkled Faux Leather Jacket via Forever21.com

Crinkled Faux Leather Jacket via Forever21.com

And these are the shoes I would wear with my LBD:

UnionBay Success Sandal via Alloy.com

UnionBay Success Sandal via Alloy.com

This would be my beach outfit, layered over my swim suit:

H&M Romper, shoes, bangle & sunglasses, via HM.com

H&M Romper, shoes, bangle & sunglasses, via HM.com

This would be my hiking outfit, along with the satchel from the top of this list:

Camping Cutie Top via ModCloth.com

Camping Cutie Top via ModCloth.com

Cargo Shorts With Sash via Charlotte Russe.com

Cargo Shorts With Sash via Charlotte Russe.com

Lace-Up Military Boot via ThreadSence.com

Lace-Up Military Boot via ThreadSence.com

And this would be the journal I cart around with me, and write and draw and express my every single thought and emotion and impression in:

Genuine Leather Writer's Notebook via Amazon.com

Genuine Leather Writer's Notebook via Amazon.com

Pen & Ink Fountain Pen Sketch Set Fine Point via Amazon.com

Pen & Ink Fountain Pen Sketch Set Fine Point via Amazon.com

If my life were mine own to live, this would be my attire and my tools; everything I need. What I wouldn’t give to be so free…

What would you do with your life if you were completely, utterly free? Imagine your life completely without restraint, without boundaries or borders or responsibilities or obligations – I dare you. Who would you be? Tell me.

(P.S. Don’t forget enter my ThreadSence.com giveaway!)


sleeping beauty

Brown Top, Ivory Vest & Khaki Shorts

Accessories

Brown Top, Ivory Vest & Khaki Shorts

Gold Leaf Earrings

Brown Top, Ivory Vest & Khaki Shorts

Beige Oxfords

brown v-neck tee :: Express; ivory slub vest :: Charlotte Russe; khaki shorts :: Aeropostale; scarf :: Charlotte Russe; cord belt :: Charlotte Russe; necklace :: Charlotte Russe; wooden bangle :: Charlotte Russe; earrings :: Forever 21; gold & pearl rings :: Forever 21; pink heart ring :: Hard Candy; men’s watch :: JC Penney; beige oxfords :: Qupid @ Forever Young; magazine :: June 2010 issue of Glamour

This is the outfit I wore on Thursday. I have a couple ideas for remixing it, and I plan to try them out soon. One plan involves a dark olive green cardigan instead of the vest, and possibly switching the khaki shorts out for some similarly colored pants. This remix idea would definitely be more cool-weather friendly, which seems to be more appropriate at the moment. I was excited to move to California because it was supposed to be warm here; so far we’ve only had a handful of days I could stand to wear shorts outside. I’m very disappointed in CA weather! At least it’s raining in Utah… I miss the rain, desperately. I was not made to live in a desert. I need something green. I think I’d like to move to Washington or Oregon sometime soon.

I am absolutely in love with these shoes and this vest… The vest is all over sized and comfy and soft and lovely, but lightweight enough to layer with it in the summer. I have a similar one in black that I adore – it looks amazing thrown over something white or gray. I’m loving vests right now, and I plan to pick up a few fitted ones very soon.

There is something seriously wrong with me. I went to sleep at about 5:00 a.m. Friday morning… and didn’t wake up until 1:00 a.m. on Saturday – 20 hours later. I was up for a few hours, then went back to sleep about 7:00 a.m. until 10:00 Saturday night! It’s now about 5:00 a.m. Sunday, and the really sad thing is, I feel like I could lay down and go back to sleep. I’m afraid that if I do go back to sleep, I’ll sleep through an entire day again… and that would really make John angry. So, I’m going to stay up, and tomorrow evening I’m going to be in bed by 10:00 p.m., at the absolute latest.

It may sound cheesy, but I have written a “Plan of Action” for myself for the next week. It includes a list of all the things I need to accomplish and the goals I have for myself. I’m going to keep track by writing myself a daily to do list and recording my progress and thoughts in my journal. Suzanne suggested something similar a few weeks ago, and I think that having goals for my day, and a way to see my productivity at the end of the day, will encourage me to get myself moving and get things done. Hopefully, it will also help to pull me out of my funk. I did go for a jog Thursday morning, and it made me feel tons better. I enjoy being physically active, it’s just a matter of motivating myself to get away from my computer. If it’s decently warm in the morning, I’m going to go for another jog. If not, I’m at least going to work out on the weights in the garage.

John has started referring to my cats as “Trail Mix”, because they follow me everywhere. And this is not a new phenomenon – they did it back in Salt Lake, too. My little sister says they’re only friendly when I’m around. People can say what they want about cats, but Vince and Lily definitely know who they belong to.

Me & Vince

Me & Vince

Oh yeah – don’t forget to enter my ThreadSence Giveaway! Deadline for entries is 11:59 p.m. Tuesday, May 25th!


Britain girl

So tired. Feels like I haven’t slept in ages.

Didn’t get as much done on my blog as I wanted to today, but I did get other stuff done, which is important too. I somehow managed to spend three hours getting myself put together this morning. Don’t ask me how that happened… I honestly have no idea. This is what I wore while I wasted my morning away:

F21 Basic White Tank

F21 Basic White Tank

Aeropostale Hoodie + Kennedy by Vanity Shorts

Aeropostale Hoodie + Kennedy by Vanity Shorts

Aeropostale Hoodie + F21 Basic White Tank

Aeropostale Hoodie + F21 Basic White Tank

It was really cute and comfy, and I almost ended up in this for the entire day, but I put together an outfit Friday that I have been dying to try out, so I changed.
(see bottom of post for all outfit info)

Blazer & Brit Tee

Earrings, Blazer & Brit Tee

I managed to drag Travis away from LoL and his computer long enough to go down to a nearby park and wander around in the fading sunlight, capturing photos of my outfit. Today I decided to wear my British flag t-shirt under my charcoal blazer with my denim shorts, black pumps, red clutch and aviator sunglasses. Perfect outfit for playing at the park. Well, except for the pumps, anyway. They were kind of a bitch to walk in across the grass. The pumps are vintage but in fantastic condition, the label inside says “Oh Deer…” and the bottoms are bright red – it was love at first sight with these shoes, especially because they were only $5. Who could turn down these shoes at that price??? They are one of the few vintage pieces I own (so far), but I fully intend to change that very soon.

Blazer & Brit Tee

Blazer & Brit Tee

Blazer & Brit Tee

I *love* this red clutch. It may very well be the nicest purse I own, and I instantly feel chic whenever I add it to an outfit.

John (father in law) called me “Britain Girl” all day today because of my shirt (which I snagged on clearance for $1… seriously. how awesome is that????). I seriously think this may have just become my FAVORITE outfit in my entire wardrobe. This was the first time I’ve worn the blazer – I’ve had it since last fall but I’ve been having a serious style blockage whenever I pull it out of the wardrobe. I was considering getting rid of it, but something finally clicked the other day, I put this together and – voila! The perfect summer outfit. I think part of the issue was that the sleeves of the blazer are actually long. I rolled them up to give it a more casual look. The black & silver printed scarf + the British flag t-shirt = my version of mixing prints. Surprisingly, my first adventure with print mixing seems to have turned out pretty well.

Clutch, bracelet & watch

I’m really loving the men’s watch look right now. I’ve been wanting a man style watch for a while now, and my mom got Travis one for his birthday last August. He hasn’t been able to use it yet, because it’s just a tiny bit too big. He really needs to take it down to the mall and get a link or two taken out of it. It’s a bit too big for me, too, but I found out today that it will at least stay on my wrist. So, I’ve stolen it and I’m wearing it till he takes it down to get it adjusted. Plus, my super awesome bangle watch from Bebe is broken. I need to find the receipt and send it in for repair – it has a one year warranty on it, and I just got it a couple months ago. I found the receipt right before we moved… but then we moved.

Vintage Black Pumps

Blazer & Brit Tee

I didn’t do a whole lot today – went to the store, explored the nearby park, and wandered around home, but it’s more than I’ve done in ages, physically speaking, and I feel pretty good about it. In fact, today was absolutely the best day I have had since moving to California three weeks ago. It’s crazy how the perfect outfit can completely transform your outlook on your day and your attitude towards the things you need to do. Even something as simple as running errands can feel glamorous in the right pair of shoes. I used to feel silly wearing high heels outside of work and clubbing, especially because I am kinda tall, but you know what? I finally decided to dress for me, and not for what other people want me to look like – and I feel so liberated. So much more free about my fashion choices. It’s definitely easier to get dressed in the morning, and if I want to wear heels, I wear them, and I don’t give a damn what other people think. I wear what I like, what I think looks good and what I’m comfortable in.

While I was at Wal-Mart today, I happened into the clearance section of the clothing and came upon a teal cropped Miley Cyrus jacket for $5!!! I’m so glad I finally had some money. I was able to get it, and while we don’t have a whole lot of money left, Travis’s 401k should be coming in soon. I already have an outfit planned for tomorrow, so I’m thinking I’ll wear my new jacket on Tuesday – though I may change my mind, it really depends on the weather. I definitely plan to continue getting out of the house over the next few days, so expect more photos with grass and trees instead of bathroom counters.

I honestly can’t believe I’m still awake. I actually fell asleep in my chair a little while ago, Travis woke me up and I almost went to bed then, but I wanted to finish this post. So here I am, an hour later, finally getting done. I am too tired to keep doing this to myself. I started re-arranging my blog today, but I will finish the updates and make over tomorrow. I’m going to bed now!

Do me a favor? Stop by my Chictopia & my Mode Republic and vote for the new outfits I’ve posted? Pretty please with a cherry on top? 🙂

Outfit Info::

Outfit #1: white tank [Forever 21], blue & white jacket [Aeropostale], denim shorts [Vanity]

Outfit #2: charcoal blazer [Forever 21], British flag t-shirt [Miley Cyrus for Wal-Mart], scarf [Vanity], denim shorts [Vanity], black pumps [vintage], red clutch [Unlisted], cuff bracelet [Forever 21], watch [men’s watch by Rumours from JC Penney], earrings [Charlotte Russe], cross ring [Vanity], aviators [Forever 21]

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I’ve had better…

…days. Seriously. Today I just feel like poop.

playin’ some pool

Kohl's Brown Cardigan + Denim Shorts

Qupid Brown Oxfords

Kohl's Brown Cardigan

Vanity Studded Purse

Kohl's Brown Cardigan

brown cardigan [Kohl’s] green lace tank [Aeropostale] denim shorts [Vanity] brown tights [Wal-Mart] studded purse [Vanity] shoes [Qupid from Forever Young] wooden bangle & earrings [Charlotte Russe] necklace [vintage]

Vote for this outfit on Chictopia and on Mode Republic – pretty please??? 🙂

First time I’ve ever worn this cardigan, although I have had it for a while. Also my first true experiment with color & with the shorts-over-tights trend. I like it. Makes my butt look fantastic, although also seems to highlight the fact that I really need to work on some other areas. I wish I had textured brown tights, I think the texture would have given this outfit a little more oomph, but I think the solid ones work too. The purse is one of my favorites – got it for $5.99 at Vanity! And it goes with this outfit perfectly. I feel like I’ve been over-accessorizing recently, so I decided to keep it very simple with this outfit, just a casual necklace-bangle-earrings combo. Definitely felt like the right mix for this outfit.

As I said at the top of the post, I feel crummy today. Been here for almost two weeks, and I think that today has been the worst for me – I feel horrible physically, emotionally and mentally. I want to go home so badly I think I might cry. We have no money and I feel like such a burden to Travis’s already heavily laden parents. I wish we could contribute. And I hate being lectured. I know there are things I need to do, and I’m doing my best, but reminding me only makes me feel worse. They’re actually a lot better about it than Travis’s mom and step dad, but right now I am kind of fragile and even small doses of pressure seem to push me further toward the edge. I think I will feel better about the move once we find jobs, and once we get my pay check from DaVinci in Utah and Travis’s 401k money. Until then, I’m just going to be one massive ball of nerves knotted up tightly. Thus far, my plan has been to avoid Travis’s parents at all costs, but they both have a 3-day weekend this weekend, and that’s going to make my coping strategy difficult to stick to.

I think I’ll go for a walk tomorrow. It’ll get me out of the house and away from the pressure, so much needed fresh air and sunlight. Hopefully I can talk Travis into letting me go alone. I feel so cornered and alone here. This is his family. I love them, but I will never be a part of it like he is. I’ve always needed time on my own, to cope and to deal with my issues by myself, and I just wish he would understand that. I’ve always been by myself, even when I lived with my family. Some days I think I’ll always be this way: alone, stuck inside my own head, unable to truly connect with another human being.

Everyone always leaves. Usually it’s me.


inspired

F21 Blazer & Tank, Vanity Shorts & CR Wedges

F21 Blazer & Tank, Vanity Shorts & CR Wedges

Bebe Earrings & F21 Flower Hair Pins

F21 Tank & Vanity Shorts

F21 Tank & Vanity Shorts

blazer: Forever 21; striped tank: Forever 21; denim shorts: Vanity; earrings: Bebe; wedges: Charlotte Russe; necklace: Forever 21; flower hair pins: Forever 21; glasses: Nine West

I love, love, love this outfit. In fact, it might actually be my new favorite for the summer – which is weird, because this is only the second time I’ve worn this blazer/tank combo, and the first time I didn’t much like it. I think the problem was the way I styled it the first time – definitely did a much better job this time around. I love it and I felt very beautiful (and fashionable) today while wearing it 🙂

The flower hair pins were a last minute addition, and if I’d thought about it a little more, I think I would have switched the pink flowers for some tiny teal bows. Definitely think the small bows in a darker color would have blended a little better with this outfit. Also, I normally would have worn my chains that are the same color as the buttons instead of the locket necklace, but they are still packed somewhere so I’m having to make due on limited jewelry for the time being.

Next time I wear it, I’m thinking I will switch the chunky wedges for my black satin pumps. I can’t decide between my small shiny black clutch or the larger red alligator print clutch… what do you think???

I ended up staying up till almost 8am today/last night, then sleeping till 4pm… Argh! I really need to get my sleeping habits rearranged! I think Travis’s parents are starting to get annoyed at us for sleeping all day.

And yes – my husband’s name is Travis. I decided to forgo the one letter names for a while. This blog is taking a different shape than I originally expected it to, but I am more than okay with that. I find that fashion helps me cope with my dilemmas more than whining does. I’m having fun, learning about a huge industry and about myself. FASHION is how we illustrate ourselves to the world. It is a form of art, both self expression and self exploration. It is a fantasy, and to write about fashion is to write that fantasy; writing fashion is writing an adventure of getting to know one’s Self and learning how to express oneself to the world. I love the communities I’ve found and all of the wonderful, beautiful and fashionable Fashionistas that I’ve met on my journey thus far, and I look forward to meeting more and getting to know everyone better while I submerge myself entirely in the world of Fashion. I love what I’m doing here, and for the first time in a while I can honestly say that I’m having fun.

Today was a good day for me 🙂 Hope yours was too.