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sleeping beauty

Brown Top, Ivory Vest & Khaki Shorts


Brown Top, Ivory Vest & Khaki Shorts

Gold Leaf Earrings

Brown Top, Ivory Vest & Khaki Shorts

Beige Oxfords

brown v-neck tee :: Express; ivory slub vest :: Charlotte Russe; khaki shorts :: Aeropostale; scarf :: Charlotte Russe; cord belt :: Charlotte Russe; necklace :: Charlotte Russe; wooden bangle :: Charlotte Russe; earrings :: Forever 21; gold & pearl rings :: Forever 21; pink heart ring :: Hard Candy; men’s watch :: JC Penney; beige oxfords :: Qupid @ Forever Young; magazine :: June 2010 issue of Glamour

This is the outfit I wore on Thursday. I have a couple ideas for remixing it, and I plan to try them out soon. One plan involves a dark olive green cardigan instead of the vest, and possibly switching the khaki shorts out for some similarly colored pants. This remix idea would definitely be more cool-weather friendly, which seems to be more appropriate at the moment. I was excited to move to California because it was supposed to be warm here; so far we’ve only had a handful of days I could stand to wear shorts outside. I’m very disappointed in CA weather! At least it’s raining in Utah… I miss the rain, desperately. I was not made to live in a desert. I need something green. I think I’d like to move to Washington or Oregon sometime soon.

I am absolutely in love with these shoes and this vest… The vest is all over sized and comfy and soft and lovely, but lightweight enough to layer with it in the summer. I have a similar one in black that I adore – it looks amazing thrown over something white or gray. I’m loving vests right now, and I plan to pick up a few fitted ones very soon.

There is something seriously wrong with me. I went to sleep at about 5:00 a.m. Friday morning… and didn’t wake up until 1:00 a.m. on Saturday – 20 hours later. I was up for a few hours, then went back to sleep about 7:00 a.m. until 10:00 Saturday night! It’s now about 5:00 a.m. Sunday, and the really sad thing is, I feel like I could lay down and go back to sleep. I’m afraid that if I do go back to sleep, I’ll sleep through an entire day again… and that would really make John angry. So, I’m going to stay up, and tomorrow evening I’m going to be in bed by 10:00 p.m., at the absolute latest.

It may sound cheesy, but I have written a “Plan of Action” for myself for the next week. It includes a list of all the things I need to accomplish and the goals I have for myself. I’m going to keep track by writing myself a daily to do list and recording my progress and thoughts in my journal. Suzanne suggested something similar a few weeks ago, and I think that having goals for my day, and a way to see my productivity at the end of the day, will encourage me to get myself moving and get things done. Hopefully, it will also help to pull me out of my funk. I did go for a jog Thursday morning, and it made me feel tons better. I enjoy being physically active, it’s just a matter of motivating myself to get away from my computer. If it’s decently warm in the morning, I’m going to go for another jog. If not, I’m at least going to work out on the weights in the garage.

John has started referring to my cats as “Trail Mix”, because they follow me everywhere. And this is not a new phenomenon – they did it back in Salt Lake, too. My little sister says they’re only friendly when I’m around. People can say what they want about cats, but Vince and Lily definitely know who they belong to.

Me & Vince

Me & Vince

Oh yeah – don’t forget to enter my ThreadSence Giveaway! Deadline for entries is 11:59 p.m. Tuesday, May 25th!

summer fashion advice & fresh start anxiety

Vanity Black Shirt Dress & Express Jeans

Vanity Black Shirt Dress & Express Jeans

Vanity Black Shirt Dress & Express Jeans

Bebe Purse

Vanity Black Shirt Dress & Miley Cyrus Black Zipper Leggings

Miley Cyrus Black Zipper Leggings & Charlotte Russe Wedges

shirt dress, scarf, cross ring: Vanity; jeans: ReRock for Express; wedges: Charlotte Russe; earrings, purse: Bebe; bracelets & locket necklace: Forever 21; black zipper leggings: Miley Cyrus/Max Azria for Wal-Mart

I decided to photograph this outfit two different ways. I could have separated it into two different outfit posts, but IMO that would have been cheating, because it’s essentially the same outfit – I just switched the jeans for shiny black zipper leggings. I love it both ways,  one is a more relaxed day time look (with the jeans) and the other is sexier (with the leggings). I wanted to wear my chains necklace (it’s a darker metal color that matches the cuff bracelet I’m wearing) from Charlotte Russe instead of the locket with this, but as we’re still in the process of moving and getting organized, I haven’t been able to locate it in the mess… I hope it got packed! I’ll cry if I lost it in the move.

In the first few photos, I am wearing my new jeans from Express. I ❤ them so much!!! They’re gorgeous, and they complement my legs and hips perfectly. Next time I photograph them, I will be sure to get some close ups of the top – you can’t see it here, but there are studs all around the belt area and the pockets. Love it!

a little summer accessorizing advice:

If you’re like me, you can’t afford a new wardrobe every season, especially in these tough economic times. IMO, the best way to update your closet without having to spend major $$$ is to update your accessories and shoes to match the current trends and season. Much of the rest stays essentially the same anyway, unless you only buy the most forward of fashion.

Bright colors and crazy details are very in for this season. Think candy colors, like bright pink, neon yellow, turquoise and light purple; nude is also very in right now – think a shade or two lighter or darker than your skin tone. Ruffles are very feminine and attractive, but don’t go overboard or you’ll just end up looking poofy. Zippers, buckles and especially studs are very hot. A belted waist is still very chic and it shows off your curves, so invest in some cute belts! Update your khakis into the current trend by adding accessories with snake skin patterns, cord bracelets, hemp, wooden jewelry, etc – anything safarish.

If you’re only able to buy one or two new pairs of shoes this season, make sure to get at least one super high wedge! Extra points if it’s a peep toe. They are super comfy, crazy sexy, and so chic! I got these ones at Charlotte Russe for just $15.99 and I practically live in them. Wedges are perfect for those of us who love heels but have a hard time walking in stilettos. Detailing like buckles, zippers and studs give them a unique edge, but the wedge makes them fun and playful, a perfect combo for summertime.

One splurge every woman should indulge herself in is a designer  purse. The right bag will match just about every outfit you own without having to try, will last ages and all sorts of abuse, and will travel everywhere with you. It’s worth the extra $$$ because you’ll probably end up using it just about every day, and you’ll get so many extra miles out of one that’s well made!

-Update blog every day, at least once daily
-Outfit posts at least three times weekly
-Write in journal daily
-Find a job by the end of May
-Meditate daily
-Exercise at least 3-4 times weekly

I’ve decided that my Fresh Start needs some goals to give me some direction. I’ve been here for almost a week and I haven’t gotten a damn thing done. I’ve been so tired… sleeping till 4 in the afternoon every day! Could have something to do with how late I’ve been staying up, but I think there is more to it than that. I was really sick last week, and I think part of my exhaustion and oversleeping stems from not really giving my body enough time to recuperate, especially with how very little I slept over the weekend. I think another part, the biggest part of it, is from anxiety and depression resulting from The Move. I want to make things work here, but I want to make them work on my terms, no one else’s. Unfortunately, I’m not sure that’s going to be possible… We’re living with T’s parents, so we have to please them, and T is also starting to pressure me about other aspects of our marriage he wants to work on. Personally, I would rather get settled here and let those things work themselves out, as I’m sure they eventually would. I don’t think he’s going to be very patient about it, though, and I think him rushing things is going to make things significantly worse rather than better. I just wish he would understand that.

I was really excited about The Move pre-move, but now that we have actually moved I finally have time to feel the anxiety that accompanies such a huge change in one’s life (and location). I feel… displaced. I miss my mommy and daddy and I wonder if I really will be able to find my place here. There were a lot of things that I hated about Utah, but I was comfortable there. I knew where things were and how things worked. Here is very different from there.

I think once I get a job and I have some money to go do the things I was excited about being able to do in California, some of that anxiety and that sense of displacement will dissipate. But at the same time, thinking about getting a job makes me feel even more anxious. New people and new situations scare and intimidate me. I think I will give myself the weekend to get to know my new town and adjust, and start the job hunt in earnest on Monday. Honestly, it would be bad ass if I can get a job at the mall or a clothing store, at least until I can find something more suited to my qualifications. Retail is easy.

So for now, I’m going to focus on this blog, and on getting settled here and finding a job. Those are the top three things on my list, and my goals will help me to achieve these things. I need to get comfortable in my new surroundings, and the best way to do that is to get to know them and to adjust my living quarters into something familiar. I miss my furniture and all of my space, but I will have to learn to make do with what I have. I need a bookcase desperately, but I can get one when I get a job. Everything seems to hinge on getting a job and making money.

The stress and anxiety of this new situation make it hard to not want to fall back into old, bad habits… it’s a good thing we no longer have access to the people we used to hang out with. A downside to that though is that my body seems to want to replace those habits with comfort food… I really need to find some new, healthier outlets for expressing and reducing stress. I wish I could afford a gym membership!

I really need to find a job, ASAP.

Sorry for the ridiculously long post…

midnight munchies

Some things that I found on NeedSupply that I desperately want:

NeedSupply Cloud Parade Dress

Cloud Parade Dress

NeedSupply DolceVita Zip & Stud Sandal

DolceVita Zip & Stud Sandal

NeedSupply Round Stone Cloud Ring

Round Stone Cloud Ring

NeedSupply Madison by Faryl Robin

Madison by Faryl Robin

The weekend was a flurry of activity getting ready for The Move. Spent all day and all night Saturday packing and cleaning (didn’t sleep at all), then Sunday was spent moving all of our furniture and stuff we weren’t taking into a storage shed. Sunday night and all day Monday we packed up everything we were taking, and we left Monday night about 9:30 mountain time for California! It was a VERY long drive, especially with two cats… we drove 60 the entire way because we were trying to make the most of our gas, so the trip took longer than Google maps said it would.

So now we’re in Cali! I’m really excited… we arrived about 8:00 am pacific time, unloaded about half of the car and then slept for a few hours. My days are all messed up now. It’s nearly 3:00 am but I’m feeling a little wired and don’t really want to go to bed. Plus I have a major case of the munchies, but eating right before bed is bad for digestion! I’m going to finish up this post, read my blogroll, then go to bed.

Speaking of other blogs, you should definitely check out the latest giveaway on Unravelled Threads. I’m pretty excited about it!

Tomorrow we’re going to finish unloading the car and get situated here, and I definitely intend to go out and explore our new town! Not really sure what’s here, but hopefully it will be warm enough that we can go walk around and find out. Google weather says 63 & cloudy… so maybe our adventure will have to wait for the weekend (lame sauce!), but either way, there will definitely be outfit photos tomorrow!

Now that I’m here in CA, at the start of a new life for myself and a fresh start for my marriage, I finally have some real time to think about, and devote myself to, my goals. I’ve always wanted to be a writer, and my recent forays into the world of Fashion have awakened a new passion for me. Fashion, for me, is both a form of self expression and self exploration. Learning what I like and what I don’t has taught me a lot about myself and my personal sense of style, and trying out new trends and new pieces that I would normally never have even thought about has been an adventure. With this new start and the chance to reinvent myself, I plan to include lots more of those pieces… new ways to explore, express and create myself abound, and I’m excited to be able to take advantage of them without worrying about how the people I know will perceive me or react… Every day here is new, with new possibilities that are endless. The ocean and the LA Fashion District are only a couple of hours away, and I intend to visit both as often as possible.

One thing I know for certain is that I am going to go back to school and finish my degree in journalism, minoring in something having to do with fashion. My ultimate goal is to work for a fashion magazine like Glamour. I’ve always loved and respected the writing element of the Fashion world, and I have a unique perspective and some interesting ideas that could really add to it. That perspective and those ideas, along with my own style and sense of fashion, are things I hope to hone and explore more here on this blog.

aspiring fashionista

I heart fashion. It’s my passion, hobby, obsession – I hope to make a career out of it. I want to write it, breathe it, live it with every ounce of my being. I want to write for a fashion magazine – hopefully Glamour or Vogue. Cindi Leive, Editor in Chief of Glamour, is one of my heroes. She’s everything I aspire to be.

I need to get my head on straight, but I know that one day I can be like her if I choose to be.

I have a tendency to post several times every day. I fully intend to continue this trend, and I plan for at least one post every day to be about fashion, and to include a photo of what I’m wearing or a spiffy new find that I’ve added to my closet. In addition to the daily fashion post, I’ve added a page to my blog for fashion. I think I’ll turn that into a gallery of my favorite outfits and pieces. And please, feel free to leave commentary. I’d love to know what you think of my work. 🙂

I wish I had enough money for designer clothes and a brand new outfit every day. But I don’t. And that’s to your benefit, dear reader, because most of probably don’t have money for designer shoes and a new wardrobe every season. We have to make due with what we already have and we’re lucky if we get to purchase a few updated items every few months.

So this project will be a challenge to my creativity; to mix and match what I already own and what few new things I can afford to purchase to create a trendy, stylish wardrobe. I’ll post pictures as often as I can, because it’s more fun if you can actually see what I’m talking about.

First fashion oriented post will be up tomorrow. Today was very much a pajama day. I did take a shower, but I just put on new PJ’s when I got out 🙂

In the mean time, I suggest you check out popcultureafternoon.blogspot.com. Liz is incredibly talented and beautiful – her work inspires me every day! You could say that she is my blogging role model. 🙂


New blog, new host, new audience…. Maybe an introduction is in order.

I want to record who I am right now, at the start of my journey, so that I can always remember.

For the purpose of this blog, my name is Sparrow.
My favorite colors are black and pink.
I am currently unemployed and looking hard for a new job.
I am Wiccan, liberal and lost.
I read tarot cards and I am very interested in fashion.
When I grow up I want to write for a fashion magazine (hopefully Glamour).
My favorite bands are Breaking Benjamin, Staind & Evanescence.
I live in Salt Lake City, Utah.
I live with my husband (T), two friends (Ad, a girl; and N, a boy), and two kitties (a boy and a girl). Our good friend B hangs out frequently, but due to his often strange behavior and personality quirks, he is the butt of many jokes amongst The Group. We’re kinda like That 70’s Show… T and I are Eric and Donna, Ad and N are kinda like Jackie and Hyde, and B is a combination of Kelso and Fez.

I feel lost and confused, dazed and disoriented. But I also feel like I’m starting to come out of it. I have a chance to start over, and I am going to take full advantage of it. I’m starting to pull it together and I’m beginning to think I might have a future after all.

I am developing a passion for fashion and art and culture, and I am re-discovering my passion for writing. I want to go back to school and finish out a Journalism major and one day (hopefully sooner rather than later) I want to write for Glamour magazine.

I can’t wait to get my life moving again. I think I’m finally figuring it out.